onnnn another note....

I wanted to congratulate myself and Joe on our new baby!
it's a Honda Civic (good car for what we can afford) and is beaautiful. I love it! beats the old Neon Chrysler any day of the week!
the neon finally broke down and so we came across this baby for 5k. now we're smooth sailing and dare I say, nit-picky with eveeerything about it. the interior is light so the rule is no more food in the car. Joe's babying it good. we're gonna take good care of this one I tell ya!

Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.....

This Christmas is going to be pretty different and a little sad because Joe is going to be working from the 23 straight till the 27th because he's the "bottom of the barrel" when it comes to his job, so while all the other senior techs are getting holidays, he's working is ass off in the friggin cold.
ahem..
all to say, it's just not happening that he can get a day off.
so as much as I am a stubborn wife, he's told me to go up to my parents anyways and spend christmas with them for the sake of Jason getting his christmas.
and we can't change our cmas dinner because my grandparents are already coming up and can't change their plans, etc,. etc,.
a whole bunch of crazyness, but that's the basic idea.
It'll be pretty sad, being that I've never spent a cmas away from Joe ever since a few years into our relationship!! so that's saying something..perhaps...5 years?
sniff...
aaanyways..
I won't ramble on too much about this since I've already done that and Joe wants to hear none of it!
Im just hoping time will go quickly and I can see him again.
he'll be off work for the 28th and 29th..
then holy heck, it's 2012!!
unbelievable..
but ALL THAT TO SAY!
that's the joys of having a son. you can't be with one guy, you can always resort to the other one! hehehe. so I'll never be short a man. ever.
yay!!
Merry early Christmas and I'll catch you all later with photos and more rambling!
xox

Me and Joe have just recently noticed that whenever Joe would come home in the evening, Jason would make it hard for him and always say things like, "no I want to read with mommy." or "I give mommy love. not you" or, "daddy you're mean. I want mommy."
and Joe's been feeling really hurt. and we've been trying to figure it out, cus when Joe is home, he's always focusing on Jason and really putting good quality time into him.
anyways,
so just today I realized just what it is. Because when we woke up this morning, Jason asked as usual, where daddy was. And I told him that "daddy is working today." but instead of shrugging it off and getting on with his day, he started saying, "Not again. Daddy always working. He come home in the afternoon, when it is sun." and I told him, "no buddy, daddy will come home when it gets dark. after we have dinner." and he got really upset with me and almost cried.
so I went on trying to comfort him and tell him Daddy will be home soon to play, etc,. etc,.
anyways, so tonight Joe comes home and as usual, I get my free time while he gets Jason ready for bed and reads storytime. And Jason starts to say the same things like, "I don't like you daddy." "I want mommy to read me story" etc,. and Joe is starting to really freak out, like, why does my son not like me???
But I already started getting the idea from this morning so me and Joe started to talk to Jason and try to figure out what was going on. And Jason ran over to the bed and covered his face and started to act all distant and weird on Joe.
He was starting to get all emotional and odd on us so I told Joe it was probably because he missed him when he was gone at work and didn't like that he came home so late--because Jason really did looove hanging out with him. So joe started to ask questions and get the little bugger's thoughts to roam free. and Jason started to get teary eye and say things like, "I don't like you going to work." "You gunna go tomorrow. I sad" stuff like that..
so we realized Jason's just trying to deal with his little emotions. he misses his dad and doesn't like it when Joe is gone. so the only way he figures will work, is to be angry with Joe when he comes home.
not the best way to work things out there little buddy, but it's a good start to communicating and learning to deal with his emotions physically and mentally in a big boy way.
it's weird to see Jason acting so grown up. it shocks me sometimes to see how much he understands and how much he can be so grown up at times. almost crazy!
We just need to keep our communications clear and constant, make sure to always talk about things and dig deep into that little brain of his, cus it's running wild and growing so darn fast!! and Joe's gunna make sure to spend extra EXTRA quality time with him, so we'll see where this goes.
I'm telling you, age 3 in a kid's year, amazing...
they change so drastically. insane!

More Kiddo updates and photos

Jason is really changing fast. I've noticed in the last maybe, 2 weeks? He's been talking WAY more, and more intellectually too. He's milder and hardly ever throws fits. And he understands logic, so me and Joe don't have to sit there arguing with him for what, hours? it's really cool to see him change like this. as if he's turning from a wee little toddler into an actual grown kid. I LOVE IT! it's too cute :) and so much fun! so  you think you're baby is so much fun now? holy heck, just wait a few years and it'll just get better! YAY

on another note..little Hailey is finally getting old enough to play with Jason. there's two sides to it. they either clash with each other cus of their own opinions. or they get along juuust fine and dandy; playing together and keeping each other company.

it's nice. I'm glad Jason is able to grow up with another kid:)

little words from my outraged mind

I'm not racist. 

I believe we are all equally entitled to being given a fair benefit of the doubt. Black, white, Asian, Spanish, Indian--whatever. And I usually don't judge one country or one race of people just by one person.

but all that to say, at this very moment I am seriously disgusted by the Chinese people. How they can live so immorally and selfishly. I know the situation and how the government is run is corrupting and causing the actions of the desperate--but does that still justify the inhumanly thoughts and actions that come about? Has society and humanity become so corrupt that we cannot differentiate the right from the wrong? Have we become so numb to the horrors and “bad” this world has to offer that when it comes to ourselves, we can’t even convince our own friggin selves that we can be better than that and we can fight for our own goddamn humanity?

It’s the things that people these days are stooping to that scare me. Giving up of their own sanity and self-respect and throwing it out the window without a care in the world.

How can someone feel justified and humanly correct by raping a woman, or torturing a child? How about murdering, stealing—and Jesus Christ, even the assholes who walk by and do NOTHING to help or be of aid? They are messed up, I tell you. And it sickens me and upsets me to know that I share the same world with people like that.

Especially children! I am a mother and I cannot even dare to imagine harming my child—much less ANY child. If you’re hungry, poor, upset—whatever the case, don’t bring it out on an innocent child. They deserve to experience childhood, to grow up and see hope in this world. Not to be caged like an animal and tortured ruthlessly. It pisses me off to no extent! There’s a lot of people out there that I hope one day—and preferably sooner rather than later—get what’s coming to them before they can create another horror story for me to read.

This world? Seriously f****d up. No lies.

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Jason does this really cute thing nowadays where if I'm wearing make-up or getting dressed to go out he'll smile at me and say, "You look pretty mommy!"
my heart melts just like THAT all over again.
there's one thing when the hubby says it. another when your son does.
I'm flattered to the bone!!

My Tubs

Jason is turning out to have so much attitude, it's almost crazy. A few months ago we thought he was strong and independent? Puhlease! Three is just the beginning! Lol

Joe loves it though. He's like, "I have so much fun having conversations with him because he's like a little man! I can have long debates with him and try and reason with him when it comes to certain problems." Which is pretty much true...heh.

Though he's going through this stage where if u correct him and he's offended, he'll say, "Fine, I'm going now." and crawl in his bed and mope. ><

Or I'll tell him he can't do something right now and he'll give me this angry look and say, "Oh my god!" super exaggerated.

Some pretty crazy stuff going on here, parenting to a three year old. But it's interesting to see what works and how to help him grow from it. so what the heck! hey, in nine or ten years from now, I'm going to have to deal with tween drama and rebellion. that oughta be fun..

this is boo with his hectic colorful ice-cream he chose himself for being a big boy and finishing his first Kumon Book of Tracing. YAY

I'm trying to be a bit more creative when it comes to his schooling. so an indoor tree seemed like a pretty good idea at the time:)  He named it "Mr. Tree"

 "Mr. Elephant and Mr. Bunny" Jason says.

Stuck to mommy forEVER. muwahahaha~

My favorite little rider. with him reading out the map, we're sure to have an adventure:p

HAPPY HALLOWEEEEEN

So Jason picked out his own costume this year. he was pretty set on being spider man when mommy wanted him to be bob the builder. hahaha

his choice was a winner:) 

me and jason traveled up to my parents for Halloween since joe was working so we wouldn't have been able to go out. But pooch was sick all day on Halloween, with a tummy bug. rested all day and kept worrying and asking me, "After one more nap, I feel better and I go trick or treat?"

AWW. soooo happy that he felt MUCH better...miraculously..haha funny how candy can give the sickest kids a invisible extra boost.

I was so happy cus he had been sooo excited about wearing his costume for halloween WEEKS before the day. I had to stop him many times from putting on his costume and running around in it. heh

anyways, he had so much fun and got so much candy...

my little baby!!!

so here's the photos!!

Happy Halloween!!

Jason's birthday pics pt. 1

sooooo, just a short vid of my LOVE at wonderland for his birthday!
about one week before his birthday, we had his "birthday party" with the cake and ice cream and presents, up at my parents where he could be with all his uncles and aunts. and omg, don't think I've ever seen so many toy construction vehicles wrapped for one little boy my LIFE. he had a super blast!
then on his birthday, the 24th, we woke up early, had a little breakfast at Mcdonalds, and then spent the whole day at wonderland. he loved it like CRAZY! sooo much for little guys to do, i was shocked. I didn't think the little bugger would take a nap with all the excitement and noise, but around his nap time, he faithfully closed his little eyes and slept for about an hour and a half:) so joe went happy with all the older rides during that time.
we all had so much fun! it's amazing how crazyily excited and happy one can be only by watching their little butterball have the time of their lives!! It was definitely a highlight for me :)
so now my boo is 3 years old!! holy crap...
I'll leave with lots of photos of the prince and his birthday doings ><