A Post To My Sweetie

I apologize for my pride.
For my stubbornness, and neglecting your feelings.
Sometimes I’m too proud to show you I care, to say I’m sorry and humble myself.
I hate it.
Sometimes I get too caught up in my own emotions that I forget what’s going on in your head, I forget to stop and ask.
Sometimes I think my problem is too important, I talk about it, when instead I should be the one listening.
Sometimes I push my way because I think it’s good, when maybe if I had of heard yours they would have been better.
Sometimes that side of me comes out, the side I don’t want you to see; you see it.
Sometimes it’s better to just stop everything, all thought, all care, all words and actions, and just say I’m sorry, and that I love you.
I’m sorry.
And even more, I love you! One million times over and beyond that, you’re really something special in my life; God’s wonderful blessing to me. You and your love. There’s the words, “I’ll never hurt you” “I’ll never let you down” “I’ll always be there for you” “You can always count on me!” those words that are used by millions of people to their significant other or loved ones. But I guess those are just words, no more then that. Perhaps they come from the bottom of your heart, but to make a promise out of them will do no good. It’ll only harden the fall.
I say those words a lot, and then I hurt you a lot. So I guess I’m guilty of it as well. I’m sorry.
Love words can do a lot to someone, but actions can do more. I’m sorry my actions aren’t as diligent as my words. I wanna show you, not only tell you.
I’m sorry for being too proud at times.
I pray to be a better person, to grow and mature with you through the Lord. I’m lucky. I’ve got Jesus, then I’ve got you! What more could I ask for!!
Thanks for your patience and understanding, something I always admire about you Babe. I love you! Xxxxxxx

well things have been happening recently that have kept me from ever touching my blog...good reasons! heh.
camping was great fun! for those of you who have been to Jess' blog, he posted some pics...tho I am planning on posting em on mine..once i can get this comp to work. OH, which reminds me...I have news!...ready??
bah..
My camera has now officially died. sniff.
it was always a little weird from the beginning, since it was bashed pretty nastily a while back and so a few different cool buttons stopped working on it. but i sufficed with snapping photos with what I had, and it made me happy!:) now it's gone and I am desperate for a new camera since I can't stand another exciting moment happening without my camera! I see others snapping shots here and there with great big smiles on their faces and I am sitting in the corner...sniff...looking at all the happy people, wishing I could capture the moments! ah! soon..I will soon get another one!! with prayers ne..
anyhow. Life is good and God is fair. so all's well! i'll be posting other new things later, right now i'm ready to sleep. enjoy yourselves..and your cameras..
HAHA..
love you guys! xxxxx

fun photos from the visit to my sweetie's place!! tanoshikata yo...
one day we'll live together..
HEE HEE!

The sister blues

so it's finally come to the day when my wonderful older sister departs from us once more!
Sniff!!
at least it's nice to know that she'll be in the same country, and not off somewhere in another world! far far away from us!! hee hee.
Lixy's my best sister. she was always there to listen to me and hear me out, understand me and make me laugh so that the mood I am in isn't so damp and blue. we usually don't have very deep, heart to heart sisterly conversations while we're together; but then when she's miles away from home, we seem to write each other majorly long e-mails of everything in our little hearts! haha, strange...
now I'll have to be the one to try and bake all sorts of goodies for the family...to satisfy the sweet tooth's! hee hee, not even CLOSE to as wonderful a cook as lixy, but maybe Jesus knows I need this practice to get weaaally weally pro!! yay!,.,..someday..
but never as good as Lixy!!
heh!
I'm going through those blues again, but not as bad as when you left to Brazil! haha, that time i cried! but don't get me wrong..hahaha, I still miss ya like heck! but the fact of knowing we're not too far away, is an encouraging, happy thought that keeps those tears back!;) I'll see you around Lix!! I hope you'll enjoy yourself and learn more and grow more for Jesus!!! you're always in my prayers, and come and visit to make us pies...hahahahahaha. I'll miss those night walks...hahaha, umm touched by an angel nights...silly laughs, tough chick work outs! ahahah, and much more!!!
LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! always always!

Mommy

Magnificent

Original

Magical

Mysterious

Youthful

"Every great man, woman, and child, has a mother right behind them. Without mothers, we would be no where. There would be no joy, no smiles, no love, no care, no understanding, no patience, no tenderness, no sympathy, no gentleness, no peace. A mother's love brings the smallest baby into the world into a hero.

Mother's are our heroes."

"It was Mother's Day morning, and my four-year-old daughter came up to me with a big smile on her face. She told me that she had a present for me, and wanted me to have it as early as possible so that I could have it all day long. I smiled at my little girl's excitement, and as I bent down to her level, I asked her what it was. Her eyes were wide with excitement, her smile almost ran right off her face. I will never forget what she then told me. She said; mom, I'm going to be the best daughter I can for you today, I'm going to be a good girl, I am going to eat all my food and wash my hands, I am going to clean up after myself and I am going to help you with everything you do today! I'm not going to complain, and when you ask me to do something I am going to do it! My heart melted at hearing my little girl's gift to me. It was the most sweetest gift I had ever received from anyone. I realized that the best gifts in life are not the ones that cost money, but the ones that are given with love, time, and care. I have received many fine things in life, but the best gift that beats them all is my daughter's simple little desire of love to be the best daughter to me in every way."

Mommy is a really wonderful person. She's a strong, funny, sweet Japanese Virgo. There's times when we both have our clashes, but not all the time. Mom is a very understanding, patient, good listener. She's fun to hang with, to laugh and poke at; to watch funny movies together or see something really funny and we can both crack up about it and feel happy inside. She's a school mommy, likes to push us and keep us all busy at it! But it's a good thing because now that I'm trying to study for the GED, her push and school knowledge really helps me. She's tough.

There's a lot of words to describe her, so I guess I'll just end in saying, She's a good mother. Someone to rely on and go to for help in any situation.

Happy YOU day, mom!!

Every mother is a special gift from Heaven, but they can never get close to how

special you are to me! You're the greatest mom I could wish for!

I'll love you till the end of time! Like snow upon a desert sand!

Hee hee, you know it'll last WAY longer then that;)

I LOVE YOU!!!

and to all mother's out there, may your day be filled with love!!

Clowning photos!! don'tcha just loove those Hirasawa boys..eeeeeeeeeehehehehe my babe and my rad bro's in laws! Mari chan, and nina, kawaaiieee yo!! miss the clowning days with you!! muwa muwa muwa!!!

I've made it back, back home. It's nice to be home, back to my coazy bed with my pillows and my room..my big shower and lots of ice to put inside my huge cups of water..my family, friends and..CHIBA! it's nice to be back to happy Chiba, but I wweeaaally miss Joejoe's home; my happy little second family of mine! I had a great time over there, enjoying those good moments of laughing with the girls for hours and hours over stupid, silly things that we seem to be able to laugh at again and again. watching those LOTR funny videos with shebs and Babe, haha, I can still laugh at it;) sigh..those were good times! I'll miss it! and I would post photos if I were on the right comp, but sadly, I am not so i'll get to that as soon as I can...i've got a lot of photos to catch up with! I gotta post elena's birthday party photos as well..
sigh..
it'll come!
Mari, it was great to room with ya! ahah for a week, we were room buddies! got to chill with you! haha, was fun. I hope you're all ok!..my back..is still being nasty to me!! grrr..
i end here on a happy note..and that is...Thank you JESUS!! was a good week, all I can say is yay!:)

just a quick post to let my sweethearts know that I miss them and Love them a ton!!
i've been at joe's home for a couple days now, ballooning at different places for Golden Week. and sooo far so good! could be better...but this being our first time doing it like this, it's fun and exciting!! Thank You Jesus!:)
hee hee, I miss my family and wonderful crazy chiba, Love Hut chums! but it's only a week, hee hee, i'm doing ok! and i'm having a duper whooper time here!
the kids are pooch and so are their dogs.
just today, Joe wanted to have a race for the two dogs. so all the kids got all riled up and ran outside and they took the dogs far down the road, and Joe held their yum snacks in his hands, and they ran like the wind in eagerness to be a pig! hahaha, it was funny to watch.
aaanyways!! please keep praying for us! since tomorrow is the LAST day of Golden Week, and the weather report says it's going to rain, and we don't want that!!! so! every prayer would be appreciated! arigatooooo!!! i love you guys tons and tons!!! miss you and i'll post again, with pics, once i get back!!
muuuuuwaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!